Gettin' By  / Ted Kosiek (Mini Chris )

It's has been a while since I have been to this site, but Susan and I were watching our wedding video again for some reason (12 yrs later) and there was Chris DJ'ing our reception. To this day people still tell me that our wedding was the best one they've ever been to.That credit goes to the DJ. Without Chris doin' his thing who knows how the reception goes. 

Honestly I don't think of Chris on a daily basis. Heck, sometimes weeks go by without me thinking of him. But every time I'm out there Dj'ing I know Chris is on my shoulder. He still has that sick sense of humor. A couple of months ago, I'm on a gig and my laptop crashes without warning. Nothing I did had to have been Chris. Next day had to go buy a new laptop. Three weeks ago I thought one of my new speakers blew or I lost half my amplifier; only to find that Chris pulled a plug from the back of the mixing board. Both episodes I nearly had heart attacks. Real funny, buddy.

This past year I've had some real interesting parties with a lot of drama. Chris had to have been sitting back and getting a good laugh. I know that the fun I have Dj'ing is soley the result of the freindship I had with Chris. Life is not as much fun without Chris around, but life would definitely be much more boring for me if Chris had not passed on his passion for entertaining to me. I tell everyone, I might not know jack about music, but I can sure entertain a crowd. Thanks, buddy.

Unfortunately I have no ideas about the three girls. I only wish that they are doing OK. I talk with Crystal occasionaly and she is doing alright. 

I never met Chris' family except at the memorial, but I would like to wish you the best this holiday season and know that Chris' legacy lives on.

Ted (aka mini chris)

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Let it snow!  / Rosemary Sis Of ^j^ Alvin Cremeans

From our family to yours, wishing you all 
a safe and peaceful Christmas.

The family of ^j^ Alvin Cremeans

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A Blessed Christmas  / Marla Mom Of Milo

We will be thinking of you at Christmas
and praying that the memories of your
angel will be the only gift you need.

Merry Christmas,

Jim and Marla Williamson
Dad and Mom of Milo

http://jeffreymilogoodale.memory-of.com

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wishing you a beautiful Christmas in Heaven  / Mom (mom)
Dear Chris, 
This will be your 3rd Christmas in Heaven and we will you just as much to day as we did the 1st Christmas. You so loved this time of the year. It's hard for all of us who miss you so much! But life goes on and we know you would have wanted that for everyone.
I just started noticing shiney pennies heads up when I seem to feel blue. I think it's your way to let me know all will be ok. I save everyone I find now where I would never pick up pennies off the ground before.
Watch over the girls as always and maybe send a few pennies their way too!
We will always cherish your memory and you will never be forfotten. We love and miss you very much. We know we will see you again one day soon so until then we send our love to the heavens. Close

Thank you at Thanksgiving  / Rosemary Sis Of ^j^ Alvin Cremeans

Thank you for all that your family does for our Angel 
and for our family during our times of sorrow. 
May your family have a peaceful Thanksgiving. 

The family of ^j^ Alvin Cremeans

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His Favorite Holiday  / Crystal (Ex-Fiancee)
As many of you know, today is Chirs' favorite holiday.  From decorating to dressing up, passing out candy to taking his daughters trick-or-treating.  Let's all honor his memory and celebrate this day to the fullest!  

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a sweater to remember  / Mom
Dear Chris,
As I was cleaning out the big truck today, I found a bag in the back of my clothes and opened it to see what it was. When I opened it I could hardly believe my eyes, it was the sweater that Shannon brought me from your clothes. As i hugged it and cried I tried so hard to get your smell from it but I couldn't and that hurt so much. I hate that I can't smell you anymore but I am lucky as I have you on video and can hear your voice.  I decided today to do something special with the sweater so I can have it close to me all the time which I need very much. I hope you have seen the new pictures of the girls. They are all so beautiful. We all miss you so much.
Something came into my life today that needed help and I know you sent him my way as he was from Norfork and knew of your story. I know now that we are all in certain places at those special times for a reason. I hope the guy will be ok and pass it on to someone else.
I miss you so very much but will always love you.
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nikki <3  / Shelby Caldwell (daughter)
hey nikki <3
wow i havent seen yo since i dont even know when.i would relly love to talk to you some time. i dont have email but if you want to call the house its (757)430-8211 and cell is (757)416-4836
                                                                 love you hun
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changes are hard  / Mom
Good morning my Chris, Even though it has been almost 2 1/2 years since you left us, it seems like just yesterday. Some days the pain is held away from me but lately the pain has settled back into me so hard that with all the changes that are happening around me sometimes I can hardly breathe. I am not a strong person and I guess I am scared of everything. The thought of having to change jobs eventhough I know it's for the best, scares me to death. It is also causing a big problem between George and I as he seems to be mad at me all the time. I cry and he just ignores me and that just hurts more. Please watch over me and give me the strength to get past my fears and past the upcoming driving tests so that we can go to the next company and hopefully make the money we need to get the house finished and make the move back to Atlanta.
We did have the chance to go to NYC to see Nikk, Ashley, Ryan and a new granddaughter Christina. They are growing up so fast just like your girls. One day I hope they will all be able to get together for a visit.
I found out yesterday that a family lost their 17 year old daughter and grandaughter when she decided she could no longer take the pressures here on earth. I know the grandmother has a broken heart as I am sure the rest of the family is devasted by this event.
I don't know this new angels name but if you see her, make sure she lets her family know she is safe now and give them peace over
time. 
Be happy Chris and know we will never forget you as you are part of me no matter how my heart is broken. I will always love you.
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I thought things would get easier  / Mom
It's been over 2 years and just as I thought things were getting a little easier by talking to people about you, it hit me today so hard that I really am no better today than 2 years ago. I have let my life get so out of control. I have let us get into such debt that I don't know how we will ever get out and I know it's my fault. I seem to spirling out of control and don't know how to get it back under control. PLEASE watch over and give me the strength I need to make some very important decisions in the next weeks that could change the ways things are now. I miss you so very much and always will. love from your mama Close

... HEY HOW ARE YOU  / NiKKi TORRES (NiECE)
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in the future  / Shelby Caldwell

Daddy

I was looking at pictures earlier of you at aunt shannons wedding, up on the alter with her, and at the reception and i could help but think... "Wow, hes never going to be able to do those things with me"
i know at my wedding, and for my whole life, you will be there in spirt, but i want you there in person.
i just cant help getting mad, even though i dont know at who, that i wont have the wedding ive always dreamed of, because you wont be there; you wont be there to walk with me down the isle, you wont be able to give me away to my husband, in pictures of me, there will be no you, and one of the most important things...we will ahve no father-daughter dance, and what makes that worse is that we already had our song: L.O.V.E.
whenever i hear that song i just breakdown thinking about you.
please just help me get through all of this without you by my side...
i love you more than you can imagine!

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music graphic  / The Trevizo's Chris Mom (angel buddy )
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two years  / Shelby Caldwell

its so hard to belive thats its been two years daddy. i miss you so much and dont think that you are ever forgotten. i think about you every day, and i know that everyone else does too. you were so loved by everyone and the person(s) who did this will pay threefold.i know you watch over all of us all of the time. its really conforting to talk to you and i know you can hear me and answer me in your own ways.

you will live on in our lives and help us through every struggle we have 


                                                                 

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THINKING OF YOU ON THIS VERY DIFFICULT DAY  / KILLIANS MOMMY


GODS BLESSINGS OF PEACE TO YOUR FAMILY,
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2 years has passed since an Angel left us  / Mom
To all who read this...
2 years ago today, a terrible thing happened to our family that changed our
lives forever. Chris and his fiancee left for a cruise to Mexico and on the last night Chris was partying and I guess drinking pretty heavy. Sometime around 1 am his fiancee left for the stateroom to pack and sleep. Chris wanted to party more and stayed behind. The last person to see him was at 3:30 am and said he was very drunk and not behaving well, but was allowed to continue to roam the ship and that was the last anyone saw him. When he had not returned to the stateroom in the morning, he was reported missing and AFTER they returned to port and all persons disembarked than and only then was the Coast Guard called so a search could begin. The CG searched the entire day and then did another search the next day before we got the call that he could not be found and probably we would never have his body. I remember that call like it was yesterday. Since the first call, I never allowed myself to consider that he would not be found. The last call broke my heart in a way that's so hard to describe and then knowing what my granddaughters were going to face was even more heart breaking. We all faced such a loss and to this day I don't think any of us will ever be the same. Our lives have forever been changed because
of a terrible crime that was commited. No one will ever make me believe any
different. One day someone will have to answer for their deed. Jesse, Shelby, 
Kaylee and Hannah your nana and papa love you very much and will always
be here for you anytime. We love you very much and will make sure your daddy's memory lives on forever. The gift for a baby born on his birthday was
given last year and this year and will from now on. I think he would approve.
For ALL WHOARE THINKING OF TAKING A CRUISE....BE AWARE OF THE DANGERS AND KNOW YOU ARE JUST MONEY TO THE CRUISE LINE!
THEY DON'T CARE OF YOU AS A PERSON OR YOUR LOVED ONES IF YOU
DON'T RETURN!
Chris you will always be in our hearts where ever we go in our lives. We miss
your laughter, smile and yes even your temper. What I would give to hear
you yell one more time. As I watch your video it brings back such beautiful
memories. We love you.
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Happy 39th Birthday Chris  / Mom
It was 39 years ago at 9:30 am on July 15th, 1967 that you came into my life. At first I wasn't sure what to expect and really not prepared to be a mama. I know for much of your life I wasn't the ideal mama and for that I am truly sorry and wish more than anything I could go back and change the way things were for you. You deserved so much more attention and not all the bad. I am so sorry I didn't take us out of the abusive situation we were in and I know that the hate you had for Hal was justifed. One day he will pay for his deeds. I know that I have paid so dearly for the past 2 years by not having you here with us. I hope you know how much we miss you.
I talked to the girls last night. You would be so proud of the things they are doing. It's hard for them not to have you but Joe and Cheryl are very good to them and Joe loves the girls as if they were his own. You had a very good friend in Joe and even though you and Cheryl didn't always see things the same way, she misses you too. Your smile and laughter is missed by so many people. Things will never be the same in any of our lives.
The gift card was sent to the hospital and will be handed to a baby born on the 15th. I hope this makes you proud of the way your memory is being honored.
I wrote a brief note to let the new parents know something about you and what a good person you were.
George and I released birthday balloons this afternoon and I hope you were able to reach out and get them. We are leaving in the am for Tacoma Washington so we had to do your birthday today. We will still be thinking of
you all day tomorrow. I bought the girls a gift today and will mail it to them soon
in rememberance of your day.
I know when I write to you it may seem like I ramble but it's just that we miss you so much that my heart aches. I would never wish this pain on anyone else.
I know one day the person who did this to you will get their punishment, but
I hope they have to live everyday with the guilt and it eats them up.
It's hard to have any compassion for this person or persons.
Please watch over us and give your girls a hug they can feel somehow.
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Should Have Been Your 39th Birthday  / Mom
Dear Chris,
On the 15th it should have been your 39th birthday but instead of spending it with us, you are spending it with the angels. Though I know being with the angels is beautiful I would rather have you back with us. I know one day we will be together again and I won't let you go ever. I look at your video pictures everytime I can get to a computer and I keep your memorial dvd in the truck. It always makes me so sad to just have the pictures and not you in person. We didn't always see eye to eye but you were always loved more than you ever knew. Even though we will never know what really happened that morning or who is responsible, I take comfort in the fact that they will suffer very badly one day. I don't know how anyone could live with the guilt that they are responsible for another person's death no matter what part they played in this terrible act against  you. So many lives were forever changed on that morning. You may be gone from this world but you will never be forgotten and will always be loved.
We have to go back on the road tonite but I will do everything I can to be back to a computer on your birthday. Where ever I am on that day I will send you balloons and all my love.
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facing 58  / Mom
I woke up this morning of my 58th year and knew calls would come from family and friends with bday wishes. These calls always make me happy but one thing is missing and that's your voice. I would give anything in the world to have a recording of you with you talking. I will never forget the sound of your laughter or even when you were mad. I would just love to hear your voice. They say it gets easier as time goes by but that's so not true. Nothing will ever mend the hole in my heart or take the sadness away. We all carry on with our lives as that's what we have to do but you are in my thoughts every day. Sometimes the hurt is more than I think I can bear but then I can only hope you are happy where you are and that you are watching over us. I had a portrait of my daddy at 22 or 23 put on my leg yesterday. He was in his Air Force uniform and he looks so much like you so I feel like I have you both right where I can see you all the time.
I just talked to Cheryl and the girls. They called to tell me happy bday and let me know how they have been and what they are doing. Please watch over them and guide them in the right direction. They miss you so much.
Watch for your balloons on your birthday July 15th. We love you Chris.
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